Hey! Salam

It's been a while, peeps.

Phew. Its hard for me to have an idea to keep writing.

It's November now. and its mean we are already in the end of 2020,

Seriously, 2020 is the biggest plot twist.

With the test that everyone in the world is still struggling right now.

Alhamdulillah, me and my family still in a good state during this pandemic.

And I know and am really sorry to hear and see there're a lot of people are really struggling in living life during this pandemic of Covid-19, I pray that may Allah ease them and grant them best rewards. Aameen.

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Back these months, I learnt a few new things. 

Actually, Allah made me learnt these things by went through this new experience.

Alhamdulillah. I know it was purposeful experience even it was hard for me to go through but I know, He have a reason for me to feel it by myself rather than learn it or hear it from others.

I learnt to make a huge decision about my future. To be firm and and stick to my principle not just my feeling and emotion. To be grateful about my life and appreciate myself more.

From that, I got to study about many things. Truly grateful for that, Alhamdulillah.

I hope I will not repeat the same mistake in future soon. Aameen.

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As I'm growing up at this age, I got to see, my friends is getting married and have their own kids. (Don't ask me, when, later I punch u. Ok joke :P)

Suddenly, Im thinking about, how does it feel to be a parents, am I qualified or good enough to be a parent? And I'm actually quiet scared about that. As I see myself how I treated my students at primary school, during my previous job. Haha. To be honest, its so hard for me to handle that kids. I felt like quitting my job, everyday. LOL. Then, this brought me to think how I'm being raised by my parents since I was a kid until now (still kid inside :P)

To be honest, as a kid, we felt like our parents not giving us a good attention or love to us by not buying things that we wanted, scolding us,make us study these and those things that we don't like. Not spending a time with us, not understand our feelings. Or am I the one who just felt it.haha. No carelah. 

But, in certain way, i acknowledge, that im living my life of less hardship. What I mean by that is, I'm always have a comfortable house to live, i always have a full stomach everyday. But for having this, we as a kids need to pay the price of our parents were really busy in weekdays from 8-5 and sometimes they dont have so much time to spend with their kids as they're getting tired of working during the day and need to have a rest at night. Still, I'm respect my parents for teaching me reading Quran and helping me with my home works at night.

On the other side, i realize that it was a hustle for them to work and at the same time to raise a kids. Because im experience myself working during the day, and nearly loss my energy at night.I always fall asleep early after Isya' cause working is really tiring. I can't imagine of myself going through that and at the same time raising a kids. I salute you working parents.

I know my parents have doing their best to raise us including all the parents out there. There's must be lacking in anywhere because nobody perfect, right. There must be the ups and downs along the journey. But, to be honest im feel grateful for them who make me the way im now. Raise us with full of wisdom, in this religious environment. Because, I realize not everyone raised up in this environment, make them take lightly about solah , about importance the deen itself in life. I'm feel really grateful for that. But, i dont say that im perfect. No. Still a lot of things to be improved. In shaa Allah. But hidayah can come in anytime, right?

When Allah give hidayah to someone, they will become even more better than us. I believe that.

So, basically that is my reflection for today and firstly for myself. Count our blessings and always be grateful. In shaa Allah ;) 

Why I chose to fly? | Don't judge.

Assalamualaikum and hi peeps!
Yeah I know the fact that no one reading. Haha XD

This just come to my thought and I need to write it up.
For my future self to remember.
So like the title said. Why I chose to fly to oversea?

Actually, I'm not getting that offer right after I finished my SPM and got the result.
I went to foundation in University of Malaya.
I got to finished until the end.
And you know what, by the end of my last semester, I undeliberately applied for this oversea program sponsored by KPM collaborated with IPG. I had no strong intention to be a teacher unlike my college mates at that time, they are really into this teachers thingy but no me.

They filtered the candidates with two interviews session.
Physical test like PE to see whether you fit enough to be a educator.
Also, the last interview like the normal one.

Unexpectedly, I knew I was accepted to that program is by call when i'm driving at the shopping mall. I'm shocking like crazy, and can't think straight and I said I need a time to make a decision. This is really beyond expectation, there's a lot of my friends eagerly waiting for this offer but I can say Alhamdulillah I got it. But I was blurred.

After istikharah few times and ask for advises from elders and friends. I accept.

Tak masuk tajuk lagi kan?  kah3. Muqaddimah haruslah power.

Like I said just now, actually i don't have clear and refine intention why I flew to oversea.
In my thought that time, I want to make myself and my parents proud just because I got to study in oversea. Look at me. Ish ish ish Astaghfirullah. Riyak Takbur.

Plus, at first I don't really like my previous study and forced to take it as what was offered to me by UPU. No choice. And for this time, I don't know whether I'm like it or not but better than previous I guessed plus the oversea mindset took over me. *double facepalm*. Pardon my past self. Ya Allah.

You know what, my wrong intention got paid!
For the first semester. I crying and sighing like crazy wanted to go back home.
I also calculated my debt if I really have to go back. Lol.
I felt like I was torched inside my head to digest all the study thingy plus the struggle to understand what the lecturer were talking about especially subject that don't have specific book, just depend on the lecturer. I thought I got only 5% input during classes. 
Memang rasa nak give up.

Alhamdulillah, after times went by. I revised my intention and asked God for strength,also bunch of support from family and friends. I managed to get it done on time. Alhamdulillah. I admitted this journey is not that easy. It got bumpy roads and sometimes you fell from them but Allah is Most Merciful, He sent His hands through kind people around me. You know, I'm truly blessed to have them until know. They are really kind and sincere to me. I am someone who appreciate relationship so much, please don't break my wings. Aha!

As the time passed, Allah slowly revealed His hikmahs from everything that He let me to passed through. Plus, Allah is so kind as He continuously give me rizqis without I'm noticing.

Astaghfirullah. My bad I'm rarely count my blessings. :(

(67:23) Say, “It is He who has produced you and made for you hearing and vision and hearts; little are you grateful.”

 

As normal human being, we're going through the ups and downs, right. We're tend to complains and less to be grateful. Little that we know, He never neglects us, and He know exactly what we feel.  That how this dunya works, to test us, not to bring us down but to lift us up. Just a little reflection. Urgh. 

Things is getting better now I'm started to renavigate my life towards what Allah have direct me. The journey still not stopping yet. Pray me the best to be beneficial to others also to be bold and mature as my age. LOL :P

Sharing you (actually myself :P) my graduation picture.

The formal one

In front of new building of YU.

Model dinding jadilah XD

Yay!

Hogward Graduated. It's Levi-OH-sa not  Leviosa :P

my 1st back bone

my 2nd  back bone

Ok, see ya!

Hilang tak Bernama

Kupikir sepertinya ada kala saat waktu dimana kita dihadapkan pada keadaan tidak mahu menjadi diri sendiri
Seperti penulis meninggalkan kertasnya
Pelukis meninggalkan koasnya
Nelayan meninggalkan lautnya
Petani meninggalkan sawahnya
Entah kerana bosan atau jenuh
Atau sudah sampai pada titik muak
Atau mungkin juga hancur
Kerana terus menerus berhadapan dengan diri yang itu-itu melulu
Kembali menjadi nol dan menjelma seperti bayi yang belum pernah bertemu dengan banyak hal buruk
Menjelma seperti anak kecil yang dilindungi dari badai dan petiryang bergemuruh
Menjadi menjadi sosok yang siap untuk diisi banyak hal-hal baru
Setelah sebelumnya terhalang dan terbatasi oleh diri yang sudah merasa penuh
Aku tidak begitu yakin, perasaan ini mungkin dirasai oleh banyak orang diluar sana
yang terlanjur bingung juga takut dan tak tahu bagaimana cara yang tepat untuk menyampaikannya
agar sama dengan makna yang serupa
dan berakhir dengan rasa yang hanya bisa disimpan
tak pernah tersampaikan
pada siapa-siapa

Kredit: Menjadi Manusia

YOU CAN'T DO THAT

hi. salam.

It’s been a while guys. How are you doing? May you guy always happy and always be in His blessings.

I just ended my diploma a month ago. Alhamdulillah, after being through one and a half year program, finally me and my friends did it! Now, I’m just take a long rest at home waiting for call for interview and we’ll be posting as a teacher.

Nothing much to say. After we finished our practical, our institute held a special program for us. It held in a week. We’re exposed to kind of new education development in our country and me and my friends just follow the schedule prepared. At the end of the program, our lecturer invited three of our group to be panel for a forum. I just don’t care because I’m not kinda hype person in the group. I just mind my own business at that time. Just before the day of the forum, there was still no name to be the panel for the program. Then our group leader decided to go for a draw. And you know that I’m selected! No! Let’s draw again. There’s must be a mistake. Then, my other friend wished “good luck, sis, you can do it”. I’m really not confident to do this. This is not my niche. I can’t do this. Im not good enough to give advice to others.What if I fumble in front of others, what if I’m black out at the stage. And the ‘what if’ goes on….

You’ve been selected.  there’s no turn back. Surely, the other won’t do that.  So, I’m forced to do that. I prepared a few answers for the question given the night before and just tawakkal for tomorrow.

The day is coming. Bismillah and I just do. The first question I steer the wheel well. But, after that it turned a bit messy but I’m just say what’s in my mind and my session always ended shortly than other. Haha. But Alhamdulillah, everything went well. Of course, there’s a lot to be improved, I’m not the expert speaker. Unfortunately, the audience was my group members as well and one other junior group. That’s not so much people at that room.

For others it might seem a small deal but to me it such having to prepare for a big battle. Haha. Over. But, kudos dear self. I’m satisfied and actually happy to do that. For at least, that is the time for you to spread maybe a good words or some positivity ( I hope) as you always want to do but don’t have a chance or to be exact you actually avoided it.haha. Just a gentle reminder to me and you. Always trust yourself, trust in Allah after you put an effort, bismillah and just do it. You may do a mistake. But, hey, no human did not make a mistake. You’re not an angel. Chin up. You go girl! So that’s all.

 It’s a milestone for me. so that I should keep it here. So, this is it.

for memory :)

10 Tips for Practicum | Part 1

Alhamdulillah

It's a relief that I finish my practicum!
No need to think about lesson plan.
No need to think what activities should I do for tomorrow's class.
No need to think about observation from lecturer and GP.
No need to think about reflective journal every week.

It's a freedom!
Let's celebrate it!

Hehe. All in all, I'm feeling grateful. Alhamdulillah.

Actually this post just a sharing from me about my practicum experience before it's expired from my mind. Hee. 

Reminder :  This tips are mostly applicable for ipg students .

Let's get started.

Ok untuk pengetahuan, praktikum ini ialah subjek wajib bagi semua pelajar IPG selama 12 minggu (3 bulan).
Basically, ia sebagai latihan mengajar di sekolah-sekolah terpilih kepada bakal guru sebelum menghadapi dunia sebenar pengajaran di sekolah.

Ok praktikum saya start right after raya 10/6/2019 (Isnin)- 05092019 (Khamis)
Balik-balik raya terus kena masuk sekolah, dengan mood dam dam dum bunyi mercun tak habis lagi ni kena bersiap sedia nak jadi kami guru malaysia ni.

Ok, let's focus on the topic.
What should you do for practicum?

1. Study.
Sebelum start praktikum saya adalah study sikit-sikit. Belek-belek buku nahu, sorof dan kitab-kitab yang berkaitan untuk refresh balik ilmu-ilmu yang dah belajar masa zaman degree dulu. Yelah kita tak tahu lagi, kita kena ajar tingkatan berapa kan. Just get ready! Focus on topics from their DSKP.

2. Research

I'm also doing a "kind of" research for learning activities in classroom. You know right, that our government nowadays promote the 21st Century Learning. Jadi kena banyak cooperative learning, active learning, student centered and whatever what not. Tahu-tahu jelah kan teaching thingy ni. Ok do some research ok!

Now, nak cerita mana nak cari this kind of activities ni.

First, boleh refer balik buku pedagogi yang kita dah belajar kat IPG. Aktiviti PAK 21.
Another alternatives , saya cari di Pinterest.
Pinterest ni magic apps la untuk saya. Just type apa-apa yang kita nak. Learning activities, evaluation, classroom management, etc. Poof in a second, dia akan beri kita suggestions macam-macam. Bukan sahaja untuk educations.
Nak cari idea untuk decoration, idea untuk memasak, tips untuk kurus pun boleh.tehee.
Just give it a try, nanti you akan addict. Hehe.

Sumber yang kedua adalah guna Instagram.
Di samping tengok ootd instafamous dan mencari baju kurung ironless (biasalah cikgu) banyak je info pasal teaching dekat instagram yang kita boleh dapat.
Kalau saya saya akan follow teachers' instagram from oversea. Depa sangat banyak idea buat bbm dan aktiviti yang menarik plus tips for class management. 

Ada few suggestions you guys can follow:

@twonewteachers
@fromthepond
@mederwbtsmarties
@grade3withmrst

Boleh juga, cari dari local punya website dan fb group untuk teachers.
Eg:
bahasasyurga.net (bahasa arab)
gpsbestari.com 
TcherCollection - TC (FB)

Idea memang banyak,yang penting guru tu sendiri kena rajin :)

3. Survey Sekolah

Kita mesti dah tahu kan sekolah mana yang kita dapat, so pergi sekolah tu awal sebelum tarikh praktikum sebenar. Lebih kurang macam lapor diri untuk kenal-kenal dengan pentadbir, untuk dibahagikan guru pembimbing masing-masing untuk dapatkan gambaran awal kelas mana yang kita akan ajar dan sebagainya. Biasanya, jadual yang lebih detail akan disusun masa minggu pertama kita praktikum. 

4. Cari Penempatan

Tips juga kenapa kita perlu pergi awal ke sekolah tersebut ialah untuk mencari penempatan. Bagi student yang tak dapat duduk kolej tu cuba risik-risik tanya pentadbir kekosongan rumah warden. Kalau ada rezeki boleh duduk free. Jimat sikit duit nak bayar duit sewa rumah. Plus, boleh spend beli bbm pelajar.  Fyi, bukan sikit-sikit ye duit nak spend untuk bbm pelajar ni :D

5. Stationary 

Make sure ada stationary yang cukup. Marker pen, duster, pen hitam/ biru, merah, stapler, puncher, beli siap-siap kertas mahjung yang sebundle, beli manilla card banyak2, tic tac yang macam playdough yang boleh lekat kat dinding, salotape dsb. Untuk tambahan, saya beli laminate paper jugak supaya bbm tu nampak smart gitu, laminator tu kami guna office punya je.

6. Equipment

Penting juga beli printer yang tahan lama ink dia. Untuk print bbm, rph, document2 untuk portfolio dsb. Saya cadangkan beli printer Canon G2010 series. Harga agak pricey RM 500+ tapi berbaloi sebab ink murah dan tahan lama. Dari awal tahun sampai sekarang ink tak habis-habis lagi. Advantage bila kita print colour-colour ni portfolio lagi cantik, boleh dapat markah banyak, plus bbm tak sendu, hitam putih sahaja. Kalau beli printer biasa tapi kena selalu top up ink pun harga jadi lebih kurang jugak ye dok? Ini untuk orang yang berkemampuanlah.Tak paksa.

Selain printer, LCD juga penting bagi meraikan penggunaan TMK dalam pdp.  Saya cadangkan beli LCD Epson yang boleh dapat RM1300+ di Lazada. Again, siapa yang mampu boleh beli sendiri, kalau tak, boleh pinjam sekolah punya sahaja. Not compulsory.


Selain LCD, speaker salah satu alat penting untuk pengajaran bahasa sebab kita ada belajar kemahiran mendengar. Jadi, tanpa speaker agak sukar untuk melakukan kemahiran ini. Tetapi, tidak menjadi masalah jika guru tersebut mempunyai suara seperti speaker.Hiks. Murah sahaja speaker sekarang ni. Saya punya harga RM18. Make sure boleh bluetooth atau ada AUX yang boleh connect wire ke phone atau laptop.

7. First Day-Introduction

Untuk hari pertama masuk kelas untuk taaruf atau introduction, jangan buat biasa-biasa je like bangun, kenalkan nama, tinggal kat mana etc etc. Boleh je sebenarnya. Tapi kita bagi nampak wow sikit, first impression kat student. So saya buat camni. . Kita boleh buat aktiviti sikit, cari nama student siap2, buat kertas lipat kecil2 tulis nama student, suruh depa cabut randomly dan taaruf kawan depa tu, sebab saya cikgu bahasa arab, so saya suruh depa taaruf dalam bahasa arab. Lepas habis tu, suruh depa ulang nama pendek depa dari depan sampai belakang. Of course, take timelah nak ingat nama tu kan. Slowly but surely ye dok.
Last sekali, kita bagi sticky note sorang satu, suruh depa tulis harapan mereka terhadap kita dan pengajaran kita.

8. Class Rules

Not to forget, class rules masa hari pertama. Boleh bagi tahu apa pantang larang dalam kelas. Kalau rajin buat satu kad manila dan tampal dekat kelas depa.

9. Lesson plan/ RPH.  

At least, do one day before your class or  kalau rajin lagi seminggu sebelum pun lagi bagus. Yeah I know, lesson plan practicum ni details dan boleh cecah 10 pages. Allahu. Syukur ipg bagi taip bukan tulis tangan. Tapi jangan ditangguh ye anak-anak. Nanti bila dah menggunung menangis jugak nak buat dia. Nanti buatlah folder siap2 by week untuk rph tu. Kalau nak work smart lagi labelkan rph tu kemahiran apa (untuk language teacher) supaya in the future kalau drain idea nak buat aktiviti apa boleh kopipasta sahaja aktiviti dan tukar tajuk. Lagi baik kita cari aktiviti barulah baru guru inovatif gitu.

10. Jurnal Reflektif

Untuk jurnal reflektif kena buat setiap minggu. Apakah jurnal ni? Namanya sahaja reflektif, maka tujuannya tak lain tak bukan untuk refleksi pdp kita sepanjang seminggu.Cari satu masalah tak kisah tentang, pelajar, pdp atau guru sendiri. Cari penyelesaian BESERTA kajian lampau tentang isu tu. (iaitu citation ye) dan kena ada rujukan diakhirnya. Penulisan juga perlu kritis macam kita buat esaimen. Jumlah muka surat lebih kurang 3-4 ms sahaja.
Ini juga jangan ditangguh ye :)



Ada banyak lagi saya nak share. Tapi rasa macam panjang sangat.
Kita sambung part 2 ye :)
Wassalam.

Don’t Judge, Peeps

Salam wbt.

Today, I would love to share a hadith from kitab riyadhussolihin by Imam Nawawi rahimahullah which I heard from ustaz during fajr lecture last Saturday.

The topic was about “ The ways to enter jannah”

I’ll tell you the overall story and if I’ve got time I’ll search the hadith text on internet.

(edited)

 العاشر عنه رَضِيَ اللَّهُ عَنْهُ أن رَسُول اللَّهِ ﷺ قال: (بينما رجل يمشي بطريق اشتد عليه العطش فوجد بئراً فنزل فيها فشرب ثم خرج فإذا كلب يلهث يأكل الثرى من العطش. فقال الرجل: لقد بلغ هذا الكلب من العطش مثل الذي كان قد بلغ مني، فنزل البئر فملأ خفه ماء ثم أمسكه بفيه حتى رقي فسقى الكلب فشكر اللَّه له فغفر له) قالوا: يا رَسُول اللَّهِ إن لنا في البهائم أجرا فقال ﷺ : (في كل كبد رطبة أجر) مُتَّفَقٌ عَلَيْهِ.

(وفي رواية للبخاري: (فشكر اللَّه له فغفر له فأدخله الجنة

Okay. Let’s get started.There was a man on his way to his destination. He was really exhausted and very thirsty. So on his way, he saw a well that’s got water inside. Without further thinking he jumped down into the well to get the water for him to remove his thirst. Suddenly, after he jumped out from the well he saw a dog who looked also very thirsty and really need water. He felt pity for the dog and jumping back inside the well to take the water for the dog. He put the water inside his shoe and going up with the shoe bitten within his mouth and gave it to the dog. With the act of this guy Allah grant him with jannah and forgive all his sins.

Ma shaa Allah. What an amazing story, right? Oh before I forget that hadith was narrated by Bukhary and Muslim. So the reflection I got from this hadith is we as a Muslim definitely striving to make many good deeds to get His blessing and to enter His jannah, right? Although we have did everything that Allah tell us to do, we do a lot of ibadahs both wajib and sunnah. But we never know which deed will make us step into jannah. The ultimate loser when we know none of our deeds make us enter the jannah but into the hellfire because of our wrong intention . Nauzubillah min zalik. 

Back to the hadith.  The guy in the hadith was so lucky for me. Maybe because he had a good and sincere attention for doing the act that Allah grant him paradise and forgive all his sins. Subhanallah. How beautiful it was.

We should know from the story that to enter the jannah, we should taking care of our relationship not just with our Khaliq (Creator) but also with His makhluk (Creatures) i.e human, animal and nature. For this case- animal. He want to show us even with the unlikely animal i.e. the dog we still need to show a mercy towards it if it’s not cause any harm to us. So do good with everyone around you and who knows, because you feed the animal make you enter the jannah :) iAllah.

To widen the scope of our society today, some are easily judging people and highlighting the mistake of others even he/she did it once and in a minute forget all the good thing that he/she did before. People is not angel. We sometimes strayed away from our path and get back to our track. Don’t take God’s work to judge people. Spread the kindness, help others to make them follow the kindness. You’ll get the investment as well in hereafter soon. IAllah.

Hence in hence, mind your own business as well as people around you in a good way as our Prophet pbuh taught us, with wisdom. Purify our intentions before we do a good deeds. And Allah says that every good deeds will count iAllah.

Love Story Written By Allah

hey guys!

since  it's come to dawn, i want to take a rest from my assignment now. ( actually dah terlebih rest dah,lol) i  couldn't have imagine, this week is very hectic week as i need to submit 4 assignnments in arow. nearly explode  my head. haha.joke. thanks Allah, one of my lecturer give me time until this sunday fo r submitting  assignment. alhamdulillah.

so back to the main thing.
this year a lot, lot of my  friends are getting married. i'm really happy  and grateful to hear that. the non-stop invitation,continuously  come to my mail, or the  so called 'kad wangi' from them. nay, majority got virtual kad wangi lah. i'm really looking forward to come to their wedding.

so ,  last  week i told my mum for asking the permission for me to  go to my friend's wedding. so i told the date,place and the  details. as you guys might guess, this conversation turn out when my mum asking "kak ngah ,  when you want to get married? that day you told me that your soulmate is on the way." me replied" he just lost  his way, because  he's not using  the waze" haha.  just want to make it fun out of topic.  then,  as usual, umi will give me an advice, to  keep praying for a good one. "yeah, when the time comes, the right one wiil come".

to be honest, i was never expected thisthing will burden me that much .  as this  question keep lingering to my ears from my parents or my extended family. i thought i got lali to that question, but this time dfferent, i think i sort of get a pressure seeing a lot of my friends getting married, at this age.  i'm like "can i put this thing aside". it's really disturbing me as i'm loaded with bunch of assignment now.  i'm distructed with that.haha

suddenly one thing comes to my mind.
aa video about waiting for soulmate.  i like a few word from her.she said that our soulmate had been written  sincewe were not born yet. he had create the love story for us.and know that it's the best love story for you. so why don't you bother that much for making your own love story.  she said, before you want to get married, you must ask yourself a question, why you want to get married at the first place? you want to follow the sunnah? in fact that'sa lot of sunnah that you can do apart from married, why you just focus on marriage? it's really make me ponder a while.

you don't want to be lonely?
actually you do feel lonely even after you get married.

you want to complete the other half of your deen?
yes, your intention is good. but have you ever thinking that you 've complete the other half of your deen ? is your relationship with allah is in a good way? allahu. it really struck me the best. want to cry right away. of course not!  my good deeds is not good enough plus a lot of sins that i commit intentionally or unintentionally. astaghfirullah.
the point here, before you want to get married make sure that you're closer enough to allah. do what he ask, and stay away from what he forbid.

she also said to fill our bachelor time with a lot of good readings, exploring new place and many more you can do before you get married. cherish every single love that be given by your family and friend, especially your parents. and lastly keep  a non-stop praying for the best.
i Allah  he'll arrange the meeting of you and yoursoulmate at the right time. that's would  best love story ever.in shaa Allah.