YOU CAN'T DO THAT

hi. salam.

It’s been a while guys. How are you doing? May you guy always happy and always be in His blessings.

I just ended my diploma a month ago. Alhamdulillah, after being through one and a half year program, finally me and my friends did it! Now, I’m just take a long rest at home waiting for call for interview and we’ll be posting as a teacher.

Nothing much to say. After we finished our practical, our institute held a special program for us. It held in a week. We’re exposed to kind of new education development in our country and me and my friends just follow the schedule prepared. At the end of the program, our lecturer invited three of our group to be panel for a forum. I just don’t care because I’m not kinda hype person in the group. I just mind my own business at that time. Just before the day of the forum, there was still no name to be the panel for the program. Then our group leader decided to go for a draw. And you know that I’m selected! No! Let’s draw again. There’s must be a mistake. Then, my other friend wished “good luck, sis, you can do it”. I’m really not confident to do this. This is not my niche. I can’t do this. Im not good enough to give advice to others.What if I fumble in front of others, what if I’m black out at the stage. And the ‘what if’ goes on….

You’ve been selected.  there’s no turn back. Surely, the other won’t do that.  So, I’m forced to do that. I prepared a few answers for the question given the night before and just tawakkal for tomorrow.

The day is coming. Bismillah and I just do. The first question I steer the wheel well. But, after that it turned a bit messy but I’m just say what’s in my mind and my session always ended shortly than other. Haha. But Alhamdulillah, everything went well. Of course, there’s a lot to be improved, I’m not the expert speaker. Unfortunately, the audience was my group members as well and one other junior group. That’s not so much people at that room.

For others it might seem a small deal but to me it such having to prepare for a big battle. Haha. Over. But, kudos dear self. I’m satisfied and actually happy to do that. For at least, that is the time for you to spread maybe a good words or some positivity ( I hope) as you always want to do but don’t have a chance or to be exact you actually avoided it.haha. Just a gentle reminder to me and you. Always trust yourself, trust in Allah after you put an effort, bismillah and just do it. You may do a mistake. But, hey, no human did not make a mistake. You’re not an angel. Chin up. You go girl! So that’s all.

 It’s a milestone for me. so that I should keep it here. So, this is it.

for memory :)